After the holidays at Gabi, we lost some of our
energy. The days were dark and gloomy as the winter set in. The boys went back
to preschool, and since George was no longer needed in the fields, he once
again tackled the never-ending painting. He also tried a little carpentry as he
put together some wood to make a cabinet for the bathroom. My days were
unchanged: cooking, cleaning, laundry, and keeping the twins gainfully
amused. January 5th arrived,
and George and I talked about what time we would call my sister on her
birthday. I wondered if she, like me, was thinking about the events of January
5th five years earlier, the day my mother died.
On January 8th we once
more drove with the children to the café/bar in Montaldo to telephone my sister
with high hopes that this time we would get through. Although we had
corresponded regularly, it would be the first time I had spoken to her in the
eight months since we had left California. Luckily the bar's phone was inside a small
booth, so I’d have some privacy. After the long-distance operator predicted a
two-hour connect time, we bought the children a drink and settled down at a small table
to wait.
Around us, many older men
were gathered at the tables to play cards. When we walked in with the children,
we had caused the usual sensation. They looked up and greeted us, then talked
directly to the children in loud and jocular tones. Each child’s response
reflected his or her personality. Paul answered them back and laughed with
them. Shy James hid his head in my lap and refused to look up. Matthew smiled
openly and tried to converse, while Margaret Ann asked George to pick her up,
then leaned back against him saying nothing while looking sideways at the men
who didn’t stop talking to her. With her blonde hair and blue eyes she always
got lots of attention.
After just fifteen minutes the
phone rang, and we were connected to my sister and her husband in California. We
had woken them from a deep sleep. My sister cried off and on through most of
the phone call, which made me cry too, but I forced myself to keep control so that we
could maximize the few minutes we could afford. We had six minutes which would cost us $23, a lot of money at that time, especially considering our financial state. In those few
minutes, I tried to let each of the children speak to her, while I clutched a
list of things to say, most of which were discarded. As we said goodbye, she
sobbed into the telephone, “Just come back. Please.”
Her cries spun me backward
to five years earlier.
No comments:
Post a Comment