Late in August, my father-in-law told us to bring a
basket as he was taking us for a ride to one of Zio Silvio’s fields, but he
wouldn’t tell us why. In the crowded car we bounced up and down and sideways as
he drove slowly along the rutted lanes between the cultivated fields. We
couldn’t see much on either side as high green grass or other crops came up
past the windows. It was a relief when Marino stopped the car and we all piled
out.
As we straightened up and looked around, we saw upon row
after row of tall, green stalks. George and I recognized them but pretended we
didn’t to intrigue the children. Excited, we walking them over to one of the
stalks and carefully peeled back the fronds to expose familiar yellow corncobs
inside. “Corn, Mama!” Paul exclaimed as he and James peered at the familiar
cobs. The twins jumped up and down clapping their hands and yelling “Corn, corn!”
even though they probably had no memory of what they were seeing.
With my father-in-law’s
encouragement we retrieved our baskets and began to pick the corn. Zio Silvio waved then walked over from the other
side of the field where he had been working. He
laughed at us as we filled a basket with enough corn for our dinner. He thought
we were crazy. Marino laughed with him and explained to me that on the farms of that area
the corn was usually left on the stalks until it was hard, because it was grown
to sell as feed for livestock. Silvio wouldn’t dream of eating it himself; he
considered it fit only for animals. When we cooked it later that day, we offered some to him, but he said no thank you, giving us a good-natured look that said “Crazy
Americans!” On our way back to Gabi, I asked Marino to stop by the butcher’s in
Gaminella. To complete the meal, I wanted to cook hamburgers.
As I worked on dinner that evening, I felt relieved that instead of struggling to make do
with what was available, I could cook and serve the foodstuffs with which we
were all familiar. This brought a momentary relaxation of the knot of anxiety
inside me. That knot was built of trying to adapt what I had learned about
nutrition and cooking to ingredients that were strange to us. When I found
familiar ingredients, I could relax and just cook. The corn wasn’t as crisp or
as tasty as what we bought in the supermarket in California, but its distinct
flavor brought a flood of memories. We placed the hamburgers in small rolls and
stacked them with lettuce and tomatoes from our garden. For once I knew that
the children would willingly eat the food that I cooked, and I was confident
that it was nourishing.
My in-laws joined us in our dining room upstairs as we
cheerfully tucked into our “American” dinner. I was surprised to recognize our
warm feelings as nostalgia. That was confusing. When we left California, I
thought we had rejected everything American. How could I feel nostalgia for a
country that we had fled so willingly?
James with corn |
Mary and Paul with corn field |
George helping James and Paul harvest corn |
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